Wednesday, March 11, 2009

No Damage.

The funk has lifted. I felt so depressed and down today and can't put my finger on why, exactly. I try very hard to be positive and look at things in a clear and present light. But when my mood sinks, I get really hard on myself. Thank you all for the great comments and support. I thank you from my heart for helping me to dry my tears and straighten myself up!

And you want to know the best part? I didn't binge! I left work at lunch fully intending to get something to pig out on. I went to Randall's (like Safeway) and cruised the aisles looking for that just right food item that would take away my blues. But the more I walked around the more I realized that nothing was "calling out" to me. I picked up a bag of pita chips and thought "yeah, these will be great to nash my teeth into." I put them back. I even thought a loaf of bread would be perfect. I went to the bakery section and felt sick to my stomach. I'll be damned if I didn't just get a turkey wrap made on flatout bread and some soy crisps and a diet lemonade!

I came home and rode my bike. The weather was perfect for a ride - not too windy and nice and cool. I felt the blues leaving me as I rode around my neighborhood. It was like therapy, only cheaper!

Thank you again, you bloggers, you friends! I am thankful that today I was able to pull it together and not have to pick up the pieces.


  1. just catching up with you - sorry your day started out so bad, but it looks like you really did some great things for yourself today.

    That is the best news I've heard all day!!! Good Work!


  2. We must share some carmic connection, because I'm also going through an emotional meltdown right now and while grocery shopping I was also walking through the aisles looking for "something". Normally I'd end up with 4-5 containers of hot food, but I only bought two sandwiches (it was lunch time) and that was that.

    I love progress!

    and I love the power of the blog world to lift us up when we need it.


  4. So glad to hear that. I thought about you yesterday, hoping that you felt better. Good for you! I knew you would kick the blues BUTT. Thanks for the great news.

  5. Great choices! Do you know when I walk past ice cream (specifically Ben and Jerry or Haagendaz)...I feel nauseous....I used to eat one a week too. I guess our bodies really are changing.

  6. I'm so sorry I missed commenting on your "Moody Blues" post. Somehow I just missed seeing it. I feel really bad that I wasn't there for you. You are always there for me and I've failed you :o(

    I'll do better, I promise.

    Unfortunately moodyness is a part of the female psyche, I think. Luckily for some it's just that once a month time that it hits but for me it's been a once a week thing.

    So glad you are feeling better, no thanks to me. I'm a bad bad friend. Uh oh, here I go into one of my moods.

  7. I'm glad you're feeling better. I suspect the exercise contributed to the lifing mood. Now we just need to all remember that remedy! :) All the "experts" say we should just feel the feelings rather than stuffing them down. It looks like that's what you did. Well done (even tho it felt crappy at the time).

  8. I think sometimes we don't give ourselves enough credit for being strong. You proved your strength with this little 'adventure', and I'm thrilled for you!

  9. I sometimes get in a blue funk myself for no apparent reason. (Hormones I think.) Anyway, glad you're feeling better...and good for you for not bingeing! That's a real victory.

  10. Glad you're feeling better. You didn't go off the rails! That's a great NSV: well done!